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enet · ^

nah you right lol

enet · ^

Caffeine stops me from killing myself, makes me happy while also not making me sedentary like weed does. Bless coffee and the western world's unhealthy addiction to caffeine, I'd literally just lie in my bed and do nothing everyday while staring at the ceiling for hours without it.

I love caffeine; caffeine appreciation post.

Pirtelö · ^

Ewww caffeine junkies

Honestly understandable

enet · ^

Be fully westernised and become a caffeine addict too mom

I love walking around outside past midnight. No one around to interrupt me listening to music and once busy roads gone completely quiet. It feels like I'm the only person in the world, where no one else exists, in a state where nothing else matters other than the feelings I have listening to the music harmonically vibrating in my ears. I use no light either because I like to walk around in pitch black naturally allowing my eyes to adjust, where the vibrant colours of the day are void and the only thing that distinguishes objects from one another are brief hints of light and darkness; a true colourless world of grey. Sometimes it's dark enough for me to see the stars which become my only company in the dark and whenever there's a full moon it gives off such an entrancing luminescence that makes me think that everything around me including life itself is just a dream. I've always loved the moon, the symbol of death and rebirth and also the symbol of something you can never attain but can always strive to reach. It's a double-edged sword that at times makes me think that dying wouldn't be that bad but other times inspires me to keep working harder.

Walking around alone outside past midnight also has several horror aspects, one being the possibility of being stabbed to death which is a common thing here because I live in the UK. This might be unappealing for 99% of people but I like horror and I also like the feeling that I could die at any second.

Why did I type all that? It's valentine's tomorrow so I felt like spreading some love by sharing some of the things that I love. It's an absolute cringefest of a post but I just be like that, I'm an emotional mf

Pirtelö · ^

I completely get and love the vibe of your post I just have to ruin it by saying that being able to walk so freely at night without thinking how you'll be gangbanged & killed is the most man thing ever

Gumpyyy · ^

I honestly can't stand drinking coffee everyday, I've managed to get off it now and I feel significantly better overall. Now i only use coffee as a tool to stay awake during lectures.

Pirtelö · ^

coffee genuinely doesn't work for me anymore unless it's a double-shot pressed espresso coffee which is too over the top anyway, all it does is make me anxious and shit myself faster. I enjoy the taste so I drink it, but I can go on my life without coffee (after the 1-2 days of light headache from withdrawal)

Gumpyyy · ^

Last time I had withdrawal from coffee I felt debilitated for like 2 days, could practically do nothing because of the headache it causes for me...

Khelly · ^

enet wrote:

Be fully westernised and become a caffeine addict too mom

I love walking around outside past midnight. No one around to interrupt me listening to music and once busy roads gone completely quiet. It feels like I'm the only person in the world, where no one else exists, in a state where nothing else matters other than the feelings I have listening to the music harmonically vibrating in my ears. I use no light either because I like to walk around in pitch black naturally allowing my eyes to adjust, where the vibrant colours of the day are void and the only thing that distinguishes objects from one another are brief hints of light and darkness; a true colourless world of grey. Sometimes it's dark enough for me to see the stars which become my only company in the dark and whenever there's a full moon it gives off such an entrancing luminescence that makes me think that everything around me including life itself is just a dream. I've always loved the moon, the symbol of death and rebirth and also the symbol of something you can never attain but can always strive to reach. It's a double-edged sword that at times makes me think that dying wouldn't be that bad but other times inspires me to keep working harder.
Walking around alone outside past midnight also has several horror aspects, one being the possibility of being stabbed to death which is a common thing here because I live in the UK. This might be unappealing for 99% of people but I like horror and I also like the feeling that I could die at any second.

Why did I type all that? It's valentine's tomorrow so I felt like spreading some love by sharing some of the things that I love. It's an absolute cringefest of a post but I just be like that, I'm an emotional mf

I would love to walk around alone outside in the UK at night and be stabbed to death for being trans and have it turn into a news story where the TERFS talk about how shit I am and how I'm at fault and all us trans are evil disgusting freaks who need to be gassed while the person that does it doesn't get charged because who cares about us anyways

Khelly · ^

I wasn't nearly as moody until I started injections now I don't know whats wrong with me

Pirtelö · ^

enjoy the perks of female hormones bitch

Pirtelö · ^

what do u think we usually deal with? stability and sanity? lmfao

enet · ^

Random strangers outside really try to stroke their ego by always starting shit with me like lol chill mf you're not that guy. I know you're a weak-willed, fragile little man that wants to prove he's bigger and stronger than he actually is but I don't want anything to do with that shit, leave me alone. I'm just chillin, trying to buy shit, going through the normal process of my day and mfs trying to make a scene. It's always the middle-aged man or a guy with his gf too, fuck off dude, I don't care about comparing dick sizes. I've had a natural distrust and hatred of men and violence my whole life because of my shit father and these people justify and increase that hatred. I also hate when all the kids are on holidays, every fucking place is busy and stupid shit like that is more prone to happen. People proving to me yet again that people are shit, I want to live in my own world with only me in it. No relationships, no friendships, no any kind of ships and all that bs, I just want to live in solitude with no sort of connection or possible interaction with anyone.

Shit like this wouldn't happen either if I wasn't good looking or fit looking, it's literally been happening ever since I hit puberty. It feels like a stupid curse that makes me wish I was ugly but like why should I suffer just to please others? I like to take care of my looks, wear woman's jewelry that pisses of other guys for some reason and dress in a way that makes me feel comfortable and confident. Why does my existence trigger other people, as if I am the way I look because I'm a cocky mf and think that I have a bigger dick than everyone else, no dude, I do the things I do for my own self. Same kind of vibe as mfs who think women dress the way they do just to please men, bozos.

tldr I've hated men my entire life and I think I always will

Pirtelö · ^

haha imagine interacting with outside ppl. the moment anyone approaches me I give them a disgusted look and fuck off especially if it's men

Pirtelö · ^

also being objectively attractive is simply a curse. I already get harassed by looking average as shit simply because I am a woman, I can't imagine what'd happen if I were fitting the usual beauty standards. double or triple or quadruple the fun. it'd also make me doubt if my partner would've wanted me for anything but a quicky

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