ITT: Pretend we are still writing in osu! OT

Hika · ^

why the fuck do u have to pay so much to kill a dog wtf
tha'ts literally all i have to ask from what i read

Mahogany wrote:

sorry if I came across wrong

I completely understood you, not so much other people but yeah, it really does help kind of 'freeze' your mind from going insane so you can help rebuild yourself in the process

like i know that when i took my antidepressants (i was on prozac and abilify), I went to bed late as fuck but no matter what, I woke up exactly at 6, even if i had work at 13/14. I literally felt immune to everything. I remember one day my car swerved in the middle of the road because of heavy rains and stuff and I literally just put the car back on track and kept going. didn't give a single fuck. I used to walk outside late as fuck at night, and knowing that at the time i was an 18 Y/O, SKINNY AS FUCK FEMALE, i still did risky shit.

antidepressants are evil

EDIT: I'm pretty sure i did my age math wrong becuase i'm 20 so i meant to say 19 w/e

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enet · ^

From here forth I bestow Pedorani with the name Mickey mouse. May the neighbouring kingdoms praise your name as you rape their children.

Hika · ^

Fuck you, only I can name him.

Also i'm lonely on TS. Someone keep me company.

Granger · ^

Wtf man you dosages must have been much lower than mine. I pretty much was zombie mode. Not doing anything until ordered and then doing only that until im told something else.

Fuck that. Never again. NEVER.

Aurelianus Augustus · ^

The only time I took antidepressants was when I was around my worst for about 2 months and tbh they weren't too bad. They were the type that forced you to be happy, which was kind of amusing - still feeling like shit inside while having a pretty nice facade of happiness. They helped quite a bit actually, since people stopped being pesky and asking what's wrong and reminding me of it instead of leaving it alone.

Hika · ^

Granger wrote:

Wtf man you dosages must have been much lower than mine. I pretty much was zombie mode. Not doing anything until ordered and then doing only that until im told something else.
Fuck that. Never again. NEVER.

My psychiatrist started me off at 20MG then knocked me down to 10MG.
The 20MGs was my peak and then when she kicked me down, I kinda died and started realizing I didn't need it. For like the first two weeks I was on the higher dose, I stopped crying and started doing things in a minimal manner. So I guess we were in the same boat?

Granger · ^

I guess?

I dont even remember how high my dosages were...
Hey maybe im actually not depressed anymore and my lack of motivation for anything and general numbness, emotionlessness is actually because the meds fucked my anally brain without lube.

Hika · ^

That's what it usually is. I know my roommate told me he used to be on meds and he said he was always super happy and got the happy high. I'm not sure how he felt that cause I felt completely mindless in everything I did :p

Aurelianus Augustus · ^

Those meds alter the chemicals that affect your brain so you ARE happy, but only because you're forced to be - it feels like it's the only emotion available to you, even though you can clearly think of how "fucked up your life is".

UnderminE · ^

Hika wrote:

example: I have absolutely no idea what happened in the month of July 2015. I just can't remember it and that's really sad because that's the part of my life I want to remember so I would hope it wouldn't happen again but apparently antidepressants suck and make you feel numb as shit when you take them for extended periods of time.

In my case it's the worse when people call me a retarded because I don't remember most of the so called important things happened in my life. What if those "important things" were all traumatic things? Sometimes I wish I could remember them, but actually I'm glad I don't. Or else I'd feel bad every day, every moment. Don't worry, whenever you are about to make a mistake those memories just appear for a second in your mind and remind you of the bad experiences you've had before.

I remember my friend using those. He was both laughing and crying at the same time. It must be horrible.

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Hika · ^

I'm retarded, totally forgot they're called serotonin reuptake inhibitors

UnderminE wrote:

Sometimes I wish I could remember them, but actually I'm glad I don't. Or else I'd feel bad every day, every moment. Don't worry, whenever you are about to make a mistake those memories just appear for a second in your mind and remind you of the bad experiences you've had before.

#words to live by

thanks Miney, you're awesome. maybe it's good I don't recall stupid shit like that.
all in all, i'm p happy with my life, excluding the fact i'm losing my second job from a shitty back injury.

Last edited by Hika (2016-07-28 15:40:13)

Aurelianus Augustus · ^

In certain cases, depression is quite funny when you think about it.

UnderminE · ^

Have you heard of this game, We Happy Few, where you take pills and the world suddenly changes into a colorful shit like double rainbow and such around

Last edited by UnderminE (2016-07-28 15:43:57)

Koma · ^

We Happy Few seems to be orwellian as fuck, any first impressions?

UnderminE · ^

I've watched 2 friends of mine playing it on Twitch, it's pretty fun if you troll people around. There is an option to run around NAKED and beat people to death, that's what got me into playing it. Tho it's still an early-access game, so waiting for it to come out is the best option for now

Also

Koma wrote:

when I was doing one big swing, our family dog (who was getting old as fuck, grey hair on nose, deaf and that stuff) walked right into my room and my leg accidentally hit him.

Oh my god it actually happened like the pic I posted before

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