we've gotten word from his family that thelewa has passed away back in May. the exact cause is uncertain, but likely had to do with his mental health.
the thread is open in case anyone wants to reminisce or offer condolences.
I'll start myself - I don't think I've ever made a secret of the fact that I used to be a lewa fangirl back in 2013-2014 (in fact, that's how I found the rest of the Finnish community and first heard of Tuuba). I eventually mellowed out on that front, joined here, and ended up meeting him at last year's Tracon. he was absolutely lovely to chat with and was great at making sure that I wasn't feeling left out in a crowd of Finnish speakers. I'm sad he's not here to see that some of the things we talked about last year came true.
Can't really write much now, I'm quite devastated after hearing about this so late and after almost two months of wondering about his whereabouts.
See you Space Cowboy!
Everyone has a belief system, B.S., the trick is to learn not to take anyone's B.S. too seriously, especially your own.
No one is free as long as someone is in prison.
I don't really know much about thelewa other than he an OT oldfag, but I didn't expect my first time hearing about him in a long while would be like this.
rest in peace
That's really sad to hear. I remember meeting him at assembly 2012, it's still one of the best memories that I made from osu. Even tho we haven't talked in like 4 years it's still sad to learn he's gone now.
i didnt know him personally but ive always appreciated his godlike hdhr plays
fuck. never met him, enjoyed shitposting with him in irc. first person i looked up to in osu! but that didn't last very long as neither did my osu! career. please don't do drugs, people.
It honestly feels very weird. He's the first person I ever lost in my life, so it feels rather surreal. I was just like tupsu, in the start I was the typical fan girl, I used to draw things for him quite a bit too. obviously our friendship matured along the years and I have the precious memories of us accompanying each other in ts and Skype,talking about everything and nothing, and despite it being nothing major I treasure it so badly. I hope he's finally resting well now. He always did his best to not hurt anyone but ended up hurting himself the most,is what I feel.
Primum non nocere
He was seemingly doing well back when I last met him in May, few days before his death. We went to see Koe no katachi in the movies with him, depa and a few others. Then went for a few beers in the park. I left the park because I wasn't dressed appropriately for the cold weather. That was the last time I saw lewa.
On 29.5. Plakkis/Valentiino asked on IRC if depa has heard of lewa, since he isn't answering his phone and hasn't heard anything from him in ~17 days.
2018-05-29 07:13:39 ~Plakkis Depator: Ootko kuullu leevistä mitään tässä ~17 päivän sisään?
2018-05-29 07:13:46 ~Plakkis Se ei vastaa puhelimeen jne
2018-05-29 07:49:45 +Depator oh shit
2018-05-29 07:49:52 +Depator en oo
2018-05-29 07:50:18 +Depator näin mä sen kyl ircissä vielä viimeviikolla
2018-05-29 07:50:27 +Depator tai et oli ainakin kanavalla
2018-05-29 07:52:51 ~Plakkis Joo mut ei hän kyl vastaillut/puhunut mitään, eikä oo just puhelimeen vastannu vaikka irkissäki oli
2018-05-29 07:53:06 ~Plakkis Onkohan hän taas ihan psykoosisyövereissä :I
2018-05-29 07:53:13 +Depator vai pahempaa
2018-05-29 07:53:17 +Depator jonku pitäs mennä käymään
2018-05-29 07:53:42 +Depator mää en kyllä uskalla
2018-05-29 08:06:59 +Depator viimesen kerran ko kuullu siitä niin muistaakseni meni jp:lle käymään tjms
2018-05-29 08:10:54 +Depator Plakkis: josset sinä tai jp mee niin soitan suoraan poliisit että käy kattoon
2018-05-29 08:11:46 ~Plakkis No ite en pääse ku oon sävissä :/ tiedätkö leevin osoitteen?
2018-05-29 08:12:23 +Depator <address removed>
2018-05-29 08:14:51 ~Plakkis Jp käy
2018-05-29 08:19:50 +Depator en asunnon numeroo muista mut postiluukussa lukee juusela
2018-05-29 15:34:47 +Depator mutta onko se nyt vieläkää menny käymää??
2018-05-29 15:35:03 ~Plakkis On, eiköhän jossain vaihees kuulu takaspäin
jp went to check out on his apartment, but he didn't answer and there was a foul stench coming out of the letterbox.
2018-05-29 18:49:17 ~Plakkis Depator: Joo, pitänee soittaa poliisit
2018-05-29 18:49:27 ~Plakkis Leevi ei vastaa ja postiluukusta tuli kauhea döfä
2018-05-29 18:49:36 ~Plakkis Et joko se on hullulassa ja sen asunto on täynnä mätää ruokaa tai sit jotain ja jotain
2018-05-29 19:06:36 +Depator onks joku soittanu jo
2018-05-29 19:11:51 ~Plakkis En kyl atm kerkiä selittään tilannetta niille saati oleen paikanpäällä tjtn
2018-05-29 19:11:55 ~Plakkis Ni parempi et joku treeltä soittaa
2018-05-29 19:14:22 +Depator kai mää soitan
2018-05-29 19:14:24 +Depator vitun helvetti
2018-05-29 19:18:51 +Depator soitin
After that depator got called back and they asked a few questions about lewa. Then nothing. Until now. He had been lying in his apartment, dead since 12.5. No one got too worried, since he has been known to disappear for months before (at least from the internet). Only this time it was different.
I thought I already cried all that I would cry on midsummer. We were on a cottage with IppE and Depator. I burst out crying in the sauna, and almost tried calling lewa on telegram to ask about his whereabouts. I was talked out of it because we were all way too drunk, and I eventually calmed down.
After hearing the news from depator last night, I was quite paralyzed for the rest of my night shift. I didn't cry then. When I woke up around 17:00 today, I got up and looked at the osu! forum thread. I burst out crying again.
Later depator messaged me and asked if he can visit me on his way back home. I said I'm going to work in a few hours, but if he gives me a ride to work we have time for 30 minutes. We talked a bit about the situation, nothing new really.
Now I'm at work and read depator's post on osu forums. In tears again, especially with me listening to Kaiji soundtrack depa linked on the post.
Rest in peace lewa, you were always the nicest person to everyone.
I'd post a photo, but I never took any photos with you, even though we met quite a few times.
See you Space Cowboy...
Dang this sucks.
Rest in peace.
He seemed like a cool guy. I'm sorry for everyone's loss, and I'm sorry I never got to know him.
If you're grieving make sure you're giving yourself ample time to do so. You can DM me if you'd like to talk about it.
I also posted this in the osu thread:
Rest in peace my friend. Last time I saw you "irl" it was July 22 2017.
We had a great time going to the horse race track car meeting and flee market in Tampere.
Thanks for the hospitality and great fun. And thank you for playing.
I hope your family, friends and other people that loved you will be able to process the loss.
I will post some pictures on tuuba forum this week. I'm sad because he was such a good spirit. But a good spirit he shall remain.